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Long time, no blog.  2011 now, I'm getting divorced, had a daughter in the time I've been away.  Hubby and kids in Iowa, me in Massachusetts.  Lost without them, in my darkest place right now.  Working on it though.  Hope to blog more, might as well do it here (my blogspot blog is out of date as well, but new beginnings so I'm bringing this one back from the dead).

More to come, I can (hopefully) promise that.  I'm constantly trolling ONTD so I'll be around livejournal more.  Just happy I got my username and password on the first try.  Not bad for 3 years gone, eh?

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Didn't think I'd ever be back here, more of a blogger girl lately.  No, I've been Plurking.

But man.  What's been happening?  I've been a bit out of touch.

My life is, well, different.  Got my MS, making adenovirus for gene therapy an other research.  Being Mom, Wife.  Been knitting, into my first sweater and itching to try socks on 2 circs.

My boys:

Mommy's Little Helper:

Knit me something:

Life is much sweeter when you have pants on your head:

How I love those big brown eyes:

Horsing around with Daddy:
Current Location:
Current Mood:
calm calm
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OK, if I wasn't going to hell before, I certainly am now, but the Yankees did win Friday so I guess it was all worth it.

Let's cut things to the chase, shall we? I swore in front of a priest. No, I blasphemed.

My sister-in-law renewed her vows in a brief Catholic ceremony and afterward the guests had soup and sandwiches at her house, the priest was there. Someone turned on the Yankees/Red Sox game. I was standing right behind the priest when I looked up and saw the Sox were ahead 2-1. "God damn it!" I shouted. The room fell silent.

Now I had forgotten the priest was there until later in the evening when my husband, a recovering Catholic himself, came up to me and said, "so it was my wife who swore in front of the priest?"

Another great example of my perpetual foot-in-mouth disease.

But at least the Yanks won.

Current Mood:
amused amused
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th e l e t t e r A
Are you available?: no
What is your age?: 25
What annoys you?: That guy from Digging for the Truth

t h e l e t t e r B
Do you know anyone named Billy?: Bill, yes.
When is your birthday?: July 14th
Who is your best friend: Other than my husband, Megan

t h e l e t t e r C
What's your favorite candy?: jujubees
Who's your crush?: My husband, it amazes me how much I still lust for him
When was the last time you cried?: A few days ago

t h e l e t t e r D
Do you daydream?: often
What's your favorite kind of dog?: Pit Bull
What day of the week is it?: Monday

t h e l e t t e r E
How do you like your eggs?: sunny side up
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: yes
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: watch TV

t h e l e t t e r F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: yes
Do you use fly swatters?: yes, I hate flies
Have you ever used a foghorn?: no

t h e l e t t e r G
Do you chew gum?: yup
Are you a giver or a taker?: both, but I prefer giving
Do you like gummy candies?: oh yes

t h e l e t t e r H
How are you?: pretty good
What's your height?:5'6'
What's your hair color?: Red with long ass brown roots

t h e l e t t e r I
What's your favorite ice cream?: vanilla
Have you ever ice skated?: yup

t h e l e t t e r J
What's your favorite jelly bean?: jelly belly
Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: yeah
What jewelry do you wear?: my wedding ring

t h e l e t t e r K
Who do you want to kill?: That guy from Digging for the Truth.
Do you want kids?: I better, I have one

t h e l e t t e r L
Are you laid back?: yup
Do you lie?: I try not to

t h e l e t t e r M
What's your favorite movie when you were little?: The Sword in the Stone
Do you still watch it?: of course

t h e l e t t e r N
Do you have a nickname?: not really
What’s your favorite number?: 7
Do you prefer night over day? I'm a morning person

t h e l e t t e r O
What’s your one wish?: To grow old with my husband and watch our kids grow
Are you an only child?: no
Do you wish this was over?: I could use a nap, so I guess

t h e l e t t e r P
What fears are you most paranoid about?: Pale green pants with nobody inside them (ask if you miss the reference).

t h e l e t t e r Q
Are you quick to judge people?: yes. but usually people I never will meet (Like the guy from Digging for the Truth, or that god damned Fitness Made Simple guy)

t h e l e t t e r R
Do you think you're always right?: no, but I freely admit when I'm wrong
You watch reality TV?: sometimes
What's a good reason to cry?: realizing that you've married someone who truly cares about you (the other night we had a moment)

t h e l e t t e r S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: rain
Do you like snow?: too cold
What's your favorite season?: spring

t h e l e t t e r T
What time is it?: 2:09 PM
What time did you wake up?: 6
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: long time ago, pre-college I'd say

t h e l e t t e r U
What is your favorite kind of underwear?: boy shorts
Have you ever rode on a unicycle?: nope

t h e l e t t e r V
What’s the worst veggie?: I like most veggies, actually

t h e l e t t e r W
What's your worst habit?: biting the sides of my thumbs
Where do you live?: Iowa

t h e l e t t e r X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: yes
Have you seen the x-games?: yes
Do you own a xylophone?: no

t h e l e t t e r Y
Do you like the color yellow?: it's alright
What year were you born?: 1981

t h e l e t t e r Z
Do you believe in the zodiac?: it's fun, but I don't put any faith in it
Favorite zoo animal?: Penguins!

I yanked this from Myspace.
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List 10 songs that begin with the letter given to you and explain why you picked them. Comment and I shall give you a letter.

I was given J, for Jack :)

1. The Jean Genie - David Bowie   Who doesn't love Bowie?  And this was one of his songs covered by the Cybernauts, which is awesome since I'm infatuated with Phil Collen (NOT Phil Collins!!!)

2. Jeepster - T Rex  What can I say, I loves me my 70s glam!  And the lyrics are, in my opinion, sexy as hell (especially near the end).

3. Jesus of Suberbia - Green Day  Even Jack loves this one.  I adore Green Day and I listened to American Idiot quite often when I was pregnant.  Jack always moved more when Green Day was on.  "I'm the sone of Rage and Love / The Jesus of Suburbia"  Poetry.

4. Julia - The Beatles  So pretty

5. Johnny B. Goode - Chuck Berry  Rock and roll wouldn't be the same without it

6. Jealous Guy - John Lennon  Lennon is God, what can I say?  I also struggle with jealousy, sort of.  Not everyday, but if another girl put her hands on my Brett....

7. Jackass - Greenday  Yes, more Green Day.  "To Love you is to hate you / So loving you must be like suicide"  Powerful, to say the least

8. Jaded - Mest  Tenniebopper-punk?  Maybe, but I love this song.  "I'm jaded, stupid and reckless / not sorry and I'll never regret these years..."

9. Jamie's Cryin' - Van Halen  So perfect, the whole album.  Can't rock much more, really.

10. The Joker - Steve Miller Band  OK, who seriously doesn't like this song?  Such a classic, so much fun.

Current Location:
Current Mood:
bored bored
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It's eerie how ill at ease I am with lying but how natural pretending to be happy comes to me.  I guess I've always been good at faking it.  Faking life.
Current Mood:
depressed depressed
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I began the day so upbeat and happy only to be taken down at lunch.

Brett snapped at me over the phone.  I asked him to come up to lab to get Jack's afternoon milk and he snapped, telling me it negates this being a quick trip and asking me to bring it down.  Well, it brought me down.  I sat in the car with him for a couple of minutes talking about it, letting him know that since he didn't have to drive us home today and the only reason I am staying at work is because I'm busy and that rather than take a minute to come up and get the milk I had to stop in mid experiment to deliver it...  He apologized.  I know he has been having a bad day that is not looking to get much better, but we both agreed he shouldn't have taken it out on me.

I'm still mad at myself for meekly squeaking "OK, I'll bring it down" when I had a reason not to, but I am proud that I didn't let it fester all day long until I burst into tears, which I was on the verge of doing.

So we're cool now, I'm not angry or anything and he did apologize, not realizing how it had hurt me, but still... I can't seem to shake the funk I'm in.

Happy and upbeat ith lots of energy can so quickly turn to downtrodden and exhausted with limbs feeling heavier by the second.  I suppose it is my defense mechanism, sleep rather than be depressed.  It really is amazing the kind of effect it has, emotional swings like this.  It's not all mental, that's for sure.
Current Mood:
depressed depressed
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Those random chatters are on the rise as your baby's ability to vocalize improves. Like a singer doing warm-up exercises — or a scientist puttering in a lab — your baby is trying to use parts of his mouth and vocal cords in different ways to make sounds. You may begin to hear two-vowel combination sounds like "ma ma" (which still doesn't refer to you directly but is rewarding to hear, anyway!). Encourage your baby's experimentation by talking directly to him with lots of expressiveness and facial emotion.

This was from an informational email about kids Jack's age.  Scientists puttering around a lab?  Never!

Well OK, I might putter a little bit.  OK, a lot.  I talk to myself under my breath constantly, running over figures and ideas and the like.

But I still take offense.
Current Mood:
amused amused
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Put an X where it applies to you...


[ ] 5'2 and under
[X] 5'3 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7" - 6'0
[ ] 6'1 and up


[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[X] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black
[ ] orange
[ ] kind of both blonde and red
[ ] kind of both brunette and black
[ ] kind of all brownish blond with red and a little black
[ ] dont know


[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] dark eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/gray-eyed
[X] green/brown-eyed
[ ] they change colors

[X] glasses
[ ] contacts
[ ] neither


[ ] shaved
[ ] short hair
[X] medium
[ ] long hair

Your favorite color(s) are?

[ ] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[X] black
[ ] neon green
[ ] blue
[ ] white
[ ] turquoise
[X] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] grey
[ ] maroon
[ ] gold
[X] deep purple
[X] blood red
[ ] teal
[ ] dont have one

Some things you've done or have attempted to do

[X] ice skating
[X] hiking
[X] kayaking
[ ] rafting
[ ] water skiing
[X] camping
[X] horseback riding
[ ] surfing and skim/wake boarding
[ ] snowboarding
[X] skiing
[X] skateboarding
[ ] cheerleading
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] street hockey
[ ] ice hockey
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] martial arts
[ ] bmx
[ ] baton twirling

you CAN'T stand listening to?

[ ] pop
[X] country
[X] christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[ ] opera
[ ] reggae
[ ] emo
[ ] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ] hip hop
[ ] punk
[ ] rap
[ ] hard metal

The pets you have/had?

[X] cat
[X] dog
[X] lizard
[X] rat
[X] ferret
[ ] bunny
[X] fish
[ ] duck
[ ] horse
[X] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] turtle
[X] snake
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[ ] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[X] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] chicken/rooster
[ ] hedgehog
[X] mouse
[X] hamster

States I have been to:

[ ] Alabama
[ ] Alaska
[ ] Arizona
[ ] Arkansas
[ ] California
[ ] Colorado
[X] Connecticut
[X] Delaware
[ ] Hawaii
[ ] Idaho
[X] Illinois
[X] Iowa
[ ] Kansas
[ ] Kentucky
[ ] Louisiana
[X] Maine
[X] Maryland
[X] Massachusetts
[X] Michigan
[X] Minnesota
[ ] Mississippi
[ ] Missouri
[ ] Montana
[ ] Nebraska
[ ] Nevada
[X] New Hampshire
[X] New Jersey
[ ] New Mexico
[X] New York
[X] North Carolina
[ ] North Dakota
[X] Ohio
[ ] Oklahoma
[ ] Oregon
[X] Pennsylvania
[X] Rhode Island
[X] South Carolina
[X] South Dakota
[ ] Tennessee
[ ] Texas
[ ] Utah
[X] Vermont
[X] Virginia
[ ] Washington
[X] West Virginia
[X] Wisconsin
[ ] Wyoming

your confessions:

[ ] im afraid of quietness
[ ] I am really ticklish
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark
[X] I've collected comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I'm really sad
[ ] I open up to others easily
[ ] I read the blue/green eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I bake well
[X] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[X] I love to laugh.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis
[X] I have tried a cigarette
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I bite my nails
[X] I play computer games
[X] Gotten lost in the city
[X] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Been bungee jumping
[X] Bitten someone..in a good way
[X] Dressed up like a guy/girl...and i look dead sexy too
[ ] egged a house/car
[ ] Crashed into a car
[ ] Been fired

Have you ever...

[X] stolen a sign
[ ] danced in the rain
[ ] Seen a shooting star
[sorta] Proposed to anyone
[ ] gotton proposed to
[X] Gotten stitches..and staples
[X] Eaten Sushi
[X] Gotten the chicken pox
[X] Ridden in a taxi
[X] Been on a boat
[X] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[X] Been on a Plane by yourself
[X] Had surgery
[ ] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[X] been on stage
[ ] gotten a black eye
[X] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[X] watched an entire baseball game on tv

Do you like...

[X] old movies
[X] musicals
[X] music
[X] foreign foods
[ ] anime
[ ] christmas time
[X] doughnuts
[X] animals
[X] coffee

repost with title my X's
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I was just reading a little of this book on sex that  picked up at a book sale a couple of years back.  I read the entry on marijuana.  It claimed that young men who smoke at least 4 times a week for six months are likely to be impotent.  Well, tell that to the penis poking me in the ass every morning (you know what I mean, morning wood). Also smoking can lower sperm count and sperm viability making it harder to sire an heir.  Enter Jack.  It aslo mentions that femalt pot smokers are also less fertile due to lack of ovulation.  I missed a week, week and a half max of pills and was fertilized.  Go figure.
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